I never knew who I was, when I was a drinker.
I had no genuine personal preferences.
No solid opinions.
I took absolutely anyone else’s advice, over my own instincts. Because I would never have trusted my own inner guidance.
And it was this lack of faith and trust in myself.
This inability to recognise who I really was, and what I really wanted.
That kept me drinking, long after I wanted to stop.
I was waiting for someone to give me permission to stop drinking.
I didn’t think my giving my own permission, was worth anything.
But nobody ever gave me permission. Because it doesn’t work like that.
The only person who can ever give us permission to be ourselves, is us.
Because nobody can tell from the outside, how our drinking feels from the inside.
Even if we do manage to find the right words to tell them.
Which is something I could never do properly.
Permission isn’t going to be granted. Not from the outside.
Not just because some people have a vested interest in keeping you drinking, so that they can keep drinking, because they want company whilst they are waiting for permission, too.
But because drinking is like everything else in life; it’s up to us to find out where we really belong, and what we should be doing.
We don’t ask other people to find us the perfect job, or ideal relationship. These are things that only we know feel right or wrong.
The only way we ever find out perfect match is to take personal responsibility for getting it done.
Waiting for someone else to decide if we should stop drinking or not, is asking someone else to decide who we are.
If you are a non drinker? Then be one.
Become one, today.
Don’t wait for life to decide what you can be. It’s a waste.
And spending one more minute not being who we truly are, is one more minute that we never get back.
Give yourself permission.
Do it today.
Because you could wait years more, if you decide that someone else has to do it for you.