I didn’t talk about my drinking, until I was 7 years stopped.
Then, it suddenly seemed like the right time.
I probably would never have talked about it at all.
But I had this moment of anger.
It was New Years Eve 2012.
I’d been horribly unwell with flu or something, but it had wiped me out that entire Christmas.
So I had loads of time to sit in bed reading.
And read some really badly written report on alcohol abuse. Truly awfully put together.
It made me so angry. For the women I knew who had lost their struggle with drinking.
Who were no longer here. Did not have a voice anymore.
It made my realise that I had a voice I wasn’t using.
A voice that counted.
Because I had managed to stop drinking for good. I never struggled with it. I never even thought about drinking anymore.
So I wrote a blog post. I told my ugly story.
And it went on to the front of a huge news website. And stayed there for two days.
I immediately lost work. (Wouldn’t happen now, even 6 short years later, thankfully.) had a lot of time on my hands as a result.
And people suddenly wanted to talk about it everyday.
Instead of interviewing people on tv, which I was comfortable with.
I was turning up on the news. As a sober girl. Radio shows. Newspapers.
People just weren’t talking about the ease of stopping drinking. So I did.
And I kept talking. And blogging. For six years.
I made an app (ill-fated and ripped off sadly but still we did it!). I did webinars.
So much talking. So much writing.
And now I have nothing left to say.
There’s loads of people now. So many women sharing their backstories. Their non-drinking lives.
I don’t need to do it anymore.
Everything I learned, my journey. The method I created.
I’m going to put it in one place. I’ll let you know where soon.
The rest I’m getting rid of.
There are women who have been talking about sobriety (if that’s what you want to call it.) for far longer than me.
And they are still doing so.
I find that incredible. They should be admired and commended on their selfless work.
I’m just not one of them.
It’s not a good fit for me, now.
I’m not that person anymore.
I’ll let you know when my last piece of work is ready.
But I wanted to say a big thank you to all of you.
Thank you for being there with me, every step of the way these past six years I’ve been talking about this.
Thank you for being by my side through the vast amount of changes that have happened, both internally or externally.
Thank you for being on board with all the projects. All the new things we tried together.
Ive had you by my side every step of the way, and I will never forget that.
It’s true that it’s time for me to go in a different direction now. But you are where I came from.
And I’ll never forget that.
From the bottom of my heart, with so much love and gratitude.
It’s goodbye to howtobeasobergirl
And hello to the next chapter ❤️